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Grrr...Why does this bother me so much?
I’ve been “one of the guys” most of my life. It’s never bothered me. In fact, I’ve always taken pride in it! While the other girls had “cooties”, I was running circles around the guys and the girls simply to RUN! When the other girls were playing house or watching the boys play sports, I was in the field with the guys, holding my own.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love this fact about myself. Also it’s not like guys weren’t attracted to me, because they were. I had more boyfriends then I’m proud of. But for some reason this just really has me down right now.
This guy who I had a pretty major thing for at one point said I was like one of the guys. Normally this wouldn’t get to me at all…but for some reason with him…I don’t know. It just did. GRRR. I can’t stop thinking about it. He even explained that he ment it as a good thing, that they didn’t feel the need to act different around me like they do other girls. Arg. Why is this bothering me?
I think part of the problem is I don’t exactly get what makes me one of the guys rather then a girl. Is it just this personality stuff? Or am I just…not “sexy” or elegant, graceful, delicate, or any other word that comes to mind when I think of a girl.
Ok…I’m done with this rant I think. I know I have a low self image, why did I feel the need to remind myself? UG! I hate days where low self-esteem gets a hold of me.
~Katelyn~
